时间。。。。

当时间慢慢地流过时，我才发觉我对您的感情越来越深了。。深得无法自拔。但这是一个错误的选择。。我不知如何是好。。该继续吗？？即使当事人看到了我的贴子，我想您也不会知道那个人就是您吧。。只可以默默地等待。。但我宁愿您不知道。。这只会让我们彼此痛苦。我宁愿自己一个人痛也不希望您知道那个人就是您。。。。。。T.T

it's such an embarrassing incident...

i was helping my friends to ask my Teacher somethings just now.. and then hor... they keep satirizing me that am i in a relationship with that person and bla bla bla... btw, it's a homosexual relationship... it's dumb wad.... let them satirized almost an hour... it's the longest 1 hour in my LIFE!!! T.T but i'm not really care about them.. they're too childish..=.= hahaha right?? just helping friend wad?=.= if like that, then i'm in a relationship with many ppl edy right?=.=|||                   JUST SIMPLY POST.... COZ I'VE GOT NOTHING TO DO....

才发现。。

最近你开始对我冷淡，甚至不理我了。我的心冷了，痛了。眼，也湿了。一直以来，在我心里你只不过是一个对我来说非常普通的朋友。最近我才发现原来你在我心中已占了位置。在我无聊时，心烦时，高兴时，我常常第一时间想起你，想把所有的事都告诉你。因为你总是很耐心的听我说我的故事，开导我安慰我，所以我特别喜欢跟你分享我的一切。但你最近都对我好冷漠，我不懂为什么。你说，是我想多了。但我的直觉告诉我不是我多心而是我们之间或许真的变了。。我却不懂哪里变了，为什么变了。。才发现原来自己是多么重视在乎你这个朋友。

从前。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

从前有一位男孩子，他原以为那个人而牺牲任何一样东西或为哪个人做任何事。。但现在他明白了，无论他再怎样的付出，也不会得到回报的。因此，他选择了放弃？？maybe he'll choose to be give-up or maybe not...... should he give up or not???

it happened about few months ago........

i saw my friend's post in facebook just now. it's reminded me 1 incident after i finish reading her post.... her post is about it

*坏了的手机能修，有裂痕的友谊，能吗？*

*it means that if the handphone is spoiled,ya of course it can be repaired right?? but if the friendship is scarred, then can it be repaired?? can??*

i faced this kind of incident in the August of 2009..till now, i still dont know whose fault is it.... his or mine?? but now yes, it's been repaired but there's still scar between 2 of us..or 3... i dont really know about it.... i dont know when this scar will be relieved...

难道对一个人好就等于对自己残忍吗？？？

我不知这是我的幻觉或是我想太多。。。但有时我觉得对一个人好反而是对自己的残忍。。。难道真的要做到不求回报的那种吗？？我自问没有本事让我自己便成那么的伟大。。。难道我错了？？无论我再如何的付出，xxx 也不会感受到的吧？。。。难道这世界就是那么的现实吗？？有没有人能够帮我？？我已经开始感觉到累了。。我真的很累。。。读书读到累了，可以休息一下然后再继续。但这并不一样。。休息了，还是会觉得倒很累很累很累。。。到此结束？？？THE END??...shall i stop it? or pause it?? or continue it??? God Father,Please leads me in your way........Tells me what shall i do... what can i do?.................i'm tired.....................